If I just had that perfect keyboard. It would make my workflow just so much better. Certainly I can invest some time to find the perfect one. (BTW, if you know me for a while, I had at least 20 keyboards in the last ten years)

Oh, and if I just had the perfect Headphones. It would make my workflow just so much more enjoyable.

Oh, and if I just had that perfect pen…

I think you got the point? There are two mechanisms working here:

• Procrastination
• Wanting mind

The procrastination part is certainly hitting very close to home for me. I am learning math, which to some part seems boring, and to some part is quite challenging. It is also a area of past struggles for me, which I try to evade.

And then there is the Wanting Mind. “If I just had” is a good indicator for this. There is a deep belonging inside me, to be recognized as a nerd. By having stuff. Also, there is a side which tells me “I deserve it”. Well, all of this, of course, is just some distraction from my fear of not being enough. Of me being an imposter.

Good thing, if I notice that. In that case, I can be aware and focus back on my math learning. However, sometimes that can consume several hours.
Then it’s worth writing a blog post about it.
To avoid going back to work.